Let me be frank. I like working with others...but I hate being bossed. Unfortunately I have not yet reached the giddy freedom that is total self employment and as such still get directives. Directives that I sometimes get all huffy about and just want to REBEL REBEL REBEL so I can do it MY WAY dammit.
Yes, it's very childish. But it is also a dream of wild heart that just doesn't ever want to be caged.
What blows is when your employer just happens to be your lover...as is the case we me. So not only do I receive affection from this person I also get critiques and evaluation reports. I also, since I want to keep my job and relationship harmonious I get to do things that...I kinda don't want to do on occasion.
So what would I do instead?
I dunno...probably fart around, maybe break something, or not take an action because I'm not doing much that is new and challenging. Because as much as I may not love a directive I did choose to be guided by this person and thusly be challenged in my thinking.
That too also pisses me off...but at least that feeling goes away once I've grown a pair.
In the meantime...grumping.
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